goodbye 6130 briar town lane

sadness. we're leaving our first house together as a family. the house that i brought my adorable little boy home to. our PODS is out back waiting to be filled. emil's coming over in the morning to help jergen load the big stuff. bird and i will take the babies to the mall to stay out of the way.

we've decided to stay with bird and emil as long as they can stand us. we're paying to board the kitties, whom we couldn't find a temporary home for. we'll have to go visit them every once in awhile, as tallak has become rather fond of them.

tomorrow will be our last night and then we'll have a few days to clean up and closing is set for 9 am on wednesday. weird. we're home owners no more.

i'm kind of looking forward to sharing a room with tallak. he's a crazy little sleeper. sometimes standing up in the middle of the night and "talking" for a minute or two, then falling back over into a deep sleep.

tonight while i was emptying cabinets in the kitchen i found a toy hammer that tal stashed in the back of one of the cabinets. it made me smile so much. he's so cute and funny. he does the cutest things. today he very seriously put his sippy cup in the left cup holder on his highchair tray, then thought about it and decided to move it to the right holder. he seemed very pleased with his decision, especially since he seems to favor his right hand.

here's my big boy getting into the q-tips. you turn your head for 2 seconds....

i suppose it's about time

i really need to get better about my blog postings. i haven't posted since march, shame on me! and so much to share. i've been to germany and back, to minnesota and back and we sold our house in a record time of three days! my little man turned one and his friend sammy is one today. tallak says dada all the time, but still no mama. he walks on his own and can get up on his own, the next step is climbing, which i'm sure he's days away from. he's learning from the best, william.

little louise is already 5 1/2 months old! she was set back a bit with a stupid harness for her hips, but now her mommy is working with her to bring her back up to speed. she's been packing on the weight while in the harness, so now she's got a lot more to move than before!

i'm sure that most of you who actually read my blog have already seen most of these pictures, but here are a few of my favorite from the last couple of months.

tallak and jergen in the grass in fredericksburg, texas.

tallak and jenna at canal park, duluth, minnesota.

this is from just the other day. tallak laughing at a silly little monkey that claps and makes noise. he loves it. it's the simple things.

my sweet boy is so sad today

today was a hard day for my little man.  he woke up with a high fever that hardly broke all day.  he was so not himself.  very lethargic and pathetic all day, just wanting to be held and cuddled, which of course i loved.  but seriously, the kid was on fire.  i had him sitting around in just his diaper for awhile because he was so hot.  he took a 4 hour nap this morning, which hasn't happened in...oh....nine months or so. then he was up for a while and went back down for another nap and it's 7:15 pm and he's already in bed for the night.  poor booger.  if the fever doesn't come down by tomorrow morning we're heading to the dr.'s office. :-(  

i can't have a tallak post with out a tallak picture.  so these two are from a play date in the park last week.  he's been walking with a walker for about 2 weeks now.  such a big boy!  

   

little lou is three weeks!

check out the bed head!  

all snugly with daddy

look at those lips! awe...

bye bye leila rose!

tallak and i had a lot of fun over the past few weeks spending time with little leila rose santos. they are six months apart to the day.  i like to think of leila as tallak's first girlfriend.  he's already showing his love by patting her on the forehead! don't worry lia, i made sure he was gentle.  

Learning to pull up on furniture.

All cute and clean after a bath.

Showing off my teeth!

Do I want another baby?

This has been a subject that I've gone back and forth with a lot lately. Usually the answer is YES. I think I can handle it. I've been watching Leila a few days a week for about a month, and though it's hard work, I think I could manage. I'd just need to master the whole getting out of the house thing more. It's hard right now because Leila still sleeps a lot and Tallak is still on two naps a day. But yesterday I was ready to put Tallak up for auction. He was being so naughty and wouldn't nap, and though I love him to pieces, I really need a break from him every once in awhile. He's just so active lately and it's hard to keep him from eating the cat food while I'm trying to feed Leila. This morning I sat at the kitchen table spooning food in Tallak's mouth while giving Leila a bottle. Would that be my life if I have another baby? Surely Tal will be feeding himself by the time I have another baby, right?

Okay, now comes the NO side of me. One baby is great. I can focus all my attention on him and obviously it would be easier on the pocketbook to have just one. And for the most part he's such a good baby, what if the next one is a nightmare? What if they have colic or sleep even worse than Tal (he's still up about twice a night, when will it ever end?!) and if I have two when will I ever have time for me?! Even though I've managed with the two babies a few times a week for the past month, I still doubt my abilities to manage two kids. But, surely it can't be that hard, there's so many totally clueless people out there with 14 babies, right? But would it be horrible to not give Tallak a brother or sister? I can't imagine my life without my loving, wonderful siblings.

Thoughts?